Monday, May 28, 2012

it's really tired

Yes I do. I'm tired with all miserable thing that happened lately. I'm tired of feeling sick, heartache, and unwanted. I'm tired with all people who keep on pretending and lie and selfish like hell. I'm tired with all these shit. I wanna move on. I wanna set myself free. I wanna have fun. I wanna forget everything that might make my heart crushed and fuck all people who acted dumb in front of me. I wanna fight for it, enjoy every moment in my life without fear and tears.

I gave up.I got tired of always trying to make everything between us okay because I wanted you in my life. Then I realize that you didn't even care. Maybe I realized it's too late, but it's still hurts. Maybe I was hoping that we'd find a way to change and turn it back to what it used to be. I have to draw the line because there comes a point where I just had enough and I'd love to give up, but I never did because I had hope that it would change. Now, I think I have to make that decision because it's not fair to the both of us- especially me. It pains me to say this, maybe because I still care, but I have to tell you goodbye. I know what my problem is now. I can't let people go. I put so much effort into putting them in my life that I just hang onto them. But people change and things aren't what they used to be. I just wanted to tell you that I'm happy you've stepped into my life, even for a short while. You've made me realize a lot of thing about myself and the people around me. I don't regret ever being your girl. Thank you for your love, your attention, your kindness, your spontaneously jokes in purpose to make me smile and all those sweet or cute things you ever did. I'm going to miss you. So, for both our sake's, this is my goodbye.