Monday, May 28, 2012

it's really tired

Yes I do. I'm tired with all miserable thing that happened lately. I'm tired of feeling sick, heartache, and unwanted. I'm tired with all people who keep on pretending and lie and selfish like hell. I'm tired with all these shit. I wanna move on. I wanna set myself free. I wanna have fun. I wanna forget everything that might make my heart crushed and fuck all people who acted dumb in front of me. I wanna fight for it, enjoy every moment in my life without fear and tears.

I gave up.I got tired of always trying to make everything between us okay because I wanted you in my life. Then I realize that you didn't even care. Maybe I realized it's too late, but it's still hurts. Maybe I was hoping that we'd find a way to change and turn it back to what it used to be. I have to draw the line because there comes a point where I just had enough and I'd love to give up, but I never did because I had hope that it would change. Now, I think I have to make that decision because it's not fair to the both of us- especially me. It pains me to say this, maybe because I still care, but I have to tell you goodbye. I know what my problem is now. I can't let people go. I put so much effort into putting them in my life that I just hang onto them. But people change and things aren't what they used to be. I just wanted to tell you that I'm happy you've stepped into my life, even for a short while. You've made me realize a lot of thing about myself and the people around me. I don't regret ever being your girl. Thank you for your love, your attention, your kindness, your spontaneously jokes in purpose to make me smile and all those sweet or cute things you ever did. I'm going to miss you. So, for both our sake's, this is my goodbye.


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

DOA BUAT HATI YANG TERLUKA

ok..mende actually jmpe kt fb.. n saje nk share kt cni..
Ya Allah,
Bilamana aku masih mengingati si dia yang bukan milikku,
maka, bantulah aku untuk aku melupakan dirinya..

Andai ada kenangan antara kami yang mengikat diri,
maka lupuskanlah ia dari ingatanku..

Biarkan aku jauh dari dirinya,
dan ikatlah diriku ini untuk terus setia dengan kasihMu..

Hilangkan bayangan dia dari mindaku ini Ya Allah,
dan payungilah aku dengan rahmatMu,

Perindahkanlah lisanku ini untuk terus berzikir
menyebut asma' Mu..
agar aku sentiasa selamat dengan CINTAMU..
Ameen ya Rabbal Alamin..


Friday, May 18, 2012


reality bout life

it's hard to forget the memories ., it's even harder to forget the people who included in those moments. It's easy to forgive ,hard to forget.  but when you forgive , forget about it. okay obviously you won't . but be easy. everybody makes mistake.
Why is it so hard to forget something hurtful? because Allah wants us to learn from it and make us utterly stronger.
We still survive today because Allah has given us a lot of tests in our life. To make us stronger and to teach us the value of something valuable? haha means that we 'll know the value of someone/something that is good to us. For us to appreciate more.mcm mane pulak losing someone teach us? Hmm , for us to muhasabah diri maybe? Allah nak bagi kita hidayah and nikmat dalam banyak cara. takde kemanisan tanpa melalui kepahitan. Sometimes kita terlalu selesa dengan kedudukan kita sampai lupa. Lupa nak mensyukuri apa yang dah Allah bagi kita.and salah satu cara uji kita habis habisan melalui orang yang kita sayang.


Forgive and forget bersihkan hati. kalau kita maafkan and tak lupakan.kita still berdendam lah kan?tapi. doakan lah yang terbaik untuk semua. mengingati untuk belajar dari kesilapan then insyaAllah akan ok. Orang kata , cakap senang ah. Dude , aku pun manusia. aku pernah melalui macam macam jugak. but we have no right lah.. No matter what , try to think positive about everythings ,bersangka baik dengan orang insyaAllah bawa kepada bersangka baik dengan Allah punya plan. Heartbreaks (term untuk segala jenis cinta) ni nampak je buruk habis but then ,  Allah bagi kita jumpa orang yang buat kita heartbroken sebab nak ingatkan kita lah. but tulah aku pun ingatkan diri aku , kalau orang tu,or kawan kita tu yang terbaik buat kita. bagilah dia pada waktu yang terbaik. kalau tak di dunia ,kat akhirat. Sebab apa tau,Allah ambik sesuatu or seseorang tu dari kita and biar kita melalui sakit tu and Allah akan gantikan yang lebih baik. unexpected. Allah kan is the best .Yang pasti , everything happens for a reason . in order for us to be a better person and get a better thing in life. AllahuAllah , He's the almighty. in whatever we do , insyaAllah.give our best ,mohon petunjuk darinya.,mohon iman yang kuat. Wallahua'lam. 

:)

even u doesn't call me n text me.. i'm understand that..
even u doesn't care about me.. i'm understand that..
but if one day i stop loving u.. i hope u understand that too..^^

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


Dari Abu Hurairah ra, Nabi saw bersabda: "Siapa yang merasa pernah berbuat aniaya kepada saudaranya, sama ada berupa kehormatan badan atau harta atau lain-lainnya, hendaknya segera meminta halal (maaf) dari orang itu, sebelum datang suatu hari yang tiada harta dan dinar atau dirham, jika dia punya amal saleh, maka akan diambil menurut penganiayaannya, dan jika tidak mempunyai hasanah (kebaikan), maka diambilkan dari kejahatan orang yang dianiaya itu untuk ditanggungkan kepadanya."
(H.R. Bukhari-Muslim)

You said you didn't want to get involved with me,that one of us would get hurt and how you couldn't bear it. Well that just isn't good enough..Look what happens to people just living their lives. They get hurt, it's not fair they get hurt but they do, all the time, no matter how careful they are. Somebody can just just come along and hurt them, for no stupid reason..

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

ini lah manusia yang x tahu nak hargai kebaikan org.

kite niat nk tlg sesorang 2 dgn ikhlas.. kebanyakan manusia skunk mmg xpndai nk berterima kasih.. time dorg susah..dtg cri kite..mcm2 ckp..ayat mnis2 je..baik pompan mahupun lelaki.. bile dah dapat.. hidup mereka senang. pernah dia pk kan kite? hah! blagak lg ada la.. lupa diri.. ckp pon da terbalik..

Saturday, May 5, 2012

it might be true